You want the upper hand, but I can’t give in to you.
You want to rule me, but first I must rule you.
You want me to trust you, but I am afraid of you.
You know my fears, for you fear them too.
I am afraid of loving you and losing all hope of self control.
I am afraid of loving you and losing you.
Yet, all we have is today. We are not promised tomorrow.
So, what will you do today as I share my love with you?
Will you share your love with me too?
Audio: https://soundgasm.net/u/comealot/The-Moment
I thought I knew how to make love and then I met you. You taught me how to savor every moment I spent making love to you. Like a fine wine, you were meant to be sipped and not gulped. You tickled my ear and fed my obsession for sex with a healthy dose of self-pleasure. It wasn’t just the sound of your voice that took me over the top, you teased me with your picture too. You showed just enough to make me want even more, and then you made me explode with delight. But there was more to your love than just a minute of passion. You showed me how to make love in the here and now, and also in the before and after. You gave me just enough to quench my thirst, and not too much to keep me from coming back for more. It happened over and over again and I enjoyed each and every time like it was my first, never thinking it would be my last.
Every part of you became a part of me if only for a brief moment. You healed my spirit. You made me feel alive again. You brought out the best of me and made me so articulate with my pen. But you know all of this. I’m not telling you anything new. You knew you had this effect on me, didn’t you? Didn’t you know all along how you made me feel deep inside when you whispered sweet sounds in my ear? What did you think was going to happen? Where did you think this was going?
Oh, please make love to me. Please do it again. Don’t leave me hanging. Yes, do it again. Say those words again, the terms of endearment, the words from your heart that melt my soul. Make love to me baby. Make me whole.
Before I met you my life was no fun, like a jigsaw puzzle with too many missing pieces. Then you healed the holes in my heart pierced so many times by Cupid’s arrow. I want you. I need you. I have to have you. Come for me now. Show me how you milk the cow. Make love to me baby. You know how I like it. I want to see you. I want to hear you. Make love to me baby. Come for me now.
Hold it. Not so fast. Let’s not get too carried away. Not just yet. I’m not ready yet. I want to pen a few more love notes today. You showed me something I never saw before. You gave me new hope for the future I never knew before. You didn’t just give me what I wanted, you gave me what I needed, to have faith in sweet love once again. Isn’t it lovely when you can change someone’s life in such a profound way? You did it for me and I’ll be eternally grateful.
The clouds have passed and you come out fresh and new, alive in my soul and felt in my spirit too. Can you feel me? I can feel you. Will you make love to me? I want to make love to you. I can feel the warmth from your heart, you are my sweet sunshine today. Thank you for being you. Wait, but I have more to say.
I have so much more love deep in my heart, for you and only for you. It is a special love coming to life, for you and only for you. Make it happen. Say the words. Express yourself in similar fashion. Sing sweet nothings to me, again and again, and make me grow hard and strong. Today I have nothing to fear. It is a bright day, a sunny day, a lovely day. Let’s make love like there’s no tomorrow. Give me your all today. Make love to me baby. Let’s savor this special moment and enjoy the pleasures of life lived lovingly once more.
We hover in a kind of passionate abyss, dance to a song without form. Ours is the realm without borders, the house without walls, the private place where we meet, just the two of us, all alone.
We live here, nowhere and at the same time everywhere. Claim nothing. Do not yield to the structure of names. You and me are not even you and me; for now we are in the melted space, not even a space. It’s a special place.
You and me and love. We are the paradox of two and one and three – the trinity that adds up to nothing and yet everything. We are in love.
Filled by the fullness that contains all things. We have love. Gone is the emptiness that contains nothing. Our eyes behold of the flooding light. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and I behold you and you are beautiful.
Love is beautiful. I see you. I wonder now – indeed I have already forgotten – how it was when I lived without you. Those days seem like they have faded away into the distant past. All I can think about is our bright future.
I can’t wait. Will I see you again? Is it time yet? Are you ready yet?
No worries. Keep doing what you are doing. Keep coming to me in this beautiful place as we fall into a misty joy, as we drink our love potion together.
Are you going to enjoy this beautiful and glorious day with me? Please do. As we make love in our place.
Describing the intensity of my love for you is like trying to describe the color red to one blind from birth. What can I say, what can I do, what words can I use to make you see how much I really love you. Should I talk about the hours and the days I’m obsessed with the thought of you? Longing for a mere glimpse of you, to play over and over again in my head like an Instagram video looping endlessly. Or should I try to describe what I would do to you right now if you were here, lying next to me?
I want you.
I want you forever, now, yesterday, and always, but above all, I want you to want me.
No matter where I am or what I am doing, I am not safe from your spell. Every time I hear from you, your love potion fills my soul with delight. At any moment, the image of your face smiling at me, of your voice telling me you care, or of your hand in mine, may suddenly fill my consciousness rudely pushing out all else. I spend my time thinking only of you. I cannot think of another.
Everything reminds me of you. I try to read, but four times on a single page some word begins the lightning chain of associations that summons my mind away from my work, and I must struggle to return my attention to the task at hand. Often I give up easily, leaving my computer, and throwing myself down on my bed, wishing I could whisper sweet nothings in your ear, while my imagination constructs long and involved and plausible reasons to believe that you love me too.
Yes, I have a crush on you. I am obsessed with you, I am addicted to the hope of reciprocation. I have faith in you, I believe in you, will you make love to me ever again? Say it. Say anything. Something to make me whole again. Something to brighten one more day for me.
You have seen the light and the light burns bright, why hide it under a basket? Shine your light on me and cleanse my soul with your love. Take me to the place where they turn water to wine, to our secret place of pure ecstasy. Can you hear me now? Can you see me now? Shine bright my love, shine your bright light on me.
I can see you but I can’t see me, not unless I look at my reflection in a mirror. But is that tired old face I see really me? I’d rather see my reflection as I gaze into your eyes. I am all alone. It is through you that I live. You are my mirror. Your face smiles at the sight of me. My ego lives through your perception of me, so easily bruised by every word that comes out of your mouth. I am an empath. Your thoughts of me become my thoughts of myself. I am now on life support. Refusing to take another breath until you infuse my lungs with your life saving breath. Will you save me today? I can’t wait, so I breathe.
You don’t know what it’s like being me. How could you? You were busy living your life when I was busy living mine. We have two different life experiences. You have your perspective and then there was me. I am not who you think I am. I am not who you want me to be. I am an elusive spirit released in this ether, a wholesome, loving spirit only you can see. Why? Because you have the perspective. You see the sun shooting through a prism and you see the rainbow, but you also know that in the pure bright light lives all the glorious colors. Like magic you see the sun and the rainbow in me.
But I am blind. I look out and I can’t see me. I cannot observe this lost soul that only you have found. Will you bring me back to life and let me be me? Think back to that special moment. You saw me one day for all I could be, but I missed it. I was too busy looking into your eyes and falling in love with you, your inner spirit, a bright light, a warm heart. I was blinded by your beauty. I could see you, just like you could see me.
You can only run and hide for so long. Eventually you have to fess up and come clean. It’s just a matter of time. I’m convinced you will wake up one morning and become the answer to my prayers, the woman I saw and the woman I want to see, the woman whose body is a distant memory.
I was wondering what magic spell you possessed over me, and then it hit me like a ton of bricks. Eureka! Out of the blue as if some complex mathematical formula was revealed to me, I saw it. I saw your eyes and in your eyes I saw the reflection of me, not a tattered face awash in pleasure. No, I saw something else. It was the timing that made all the difference in the world. I was inside of you and I saw my pleasure on your face. And you moved your hips and you saw your pleasure on my face. And just as fast you’re your feelings merged with mine, the pleasure that turned water into wine, made a chemical reaction, one that can never be reversed, our spirits touched, our inhibitions burst. Yes, you did something you were never supposed to do, something you never did before. But so did I. I bit of the golden apple too. And now, many years later, I want to relive the moment and savor that special moment with you.
But my memories can only live through your perspective. My reminiscing soul can only be saved if you reminisce with me too. Tell me more about the good times, the euphoric moments we created. Tell me you loved it and how much you wish you could do it all over again. And wrap it all up in a priceless present only you can give to me now. Life, love and eternal happiness. How could I be so stupid to have missed it before, and how could I be so insane to think you would do it again. But there is hope.
When I see your face, I not only see who you are, I see the woman you were, the woman who made passionate love to me. I see in your eyes and in the expression on your face the source of my youth and my connection with the human race. I feel lost on an island all alone and only you can save me. You are the only one who has the pure, unadulterated perspective. You see the king in me and I see the queen in you. And only if we could for a moment gaze deeply into each other’s eyes again, I am convinced that the heavens would part and the ecstasy rainbow would come to life in us one more time. Will you let it happen?
I see you. Can you see me? I love you. Do you love me? I want you. I need you. I have to have you. Do you have to have me too? You are my mirror of love. Oh, won’t you please make love to me so I can make love to you too?
I want to be close to you. Do you want to be close to me? I feel you. Do you feel me? Every day I look for you, I long for your warm embrace. Every day I am thankful to hear from you. I get so excited by your soulful touch and your sexy voice. You mean more to me that anyone else in this world. I am hooked on you. I need more and more of you to feel alive. Only because you know how to please me is this depth of attraction and emotion intimacy possible. Can you feel our closeness too?
Say it. Tell me. Your wish is my command. I want to do more and more for you. I want you to be happy, because you make me feel so happy too. I have allowed myself to depend on you to feel complete. Will you allow yourself to depend on me too?
Immerse yourself in pleasure. Feel every strand of ecstasy I give you every day. I wish for you to have more pleasure than you have ever had before. It is not me and my love that makes it possible, or is it? Is it my longing for the pleasures you give me when I hear about the pleasures I give you? Who knows? Maybe that is it. Maybe that is the secret ingredient in this love for love relationship. Yes, you love me. And I love you more and more and more.
You are too far away for me to give you a hug and a kiss. Our special long-distance relationship makes it difficult at times to feel closeness in this physical world. But we have something more, something stronger and more lasting. Something more complete. As above, so below. As below, so above. As our spiritual world corresponds with our snippet of physical reality, we must pack and cram every ounce of love into every message we send.
Feel it. Let yourself go. Let yourself fly into this world of heavenly bliss. Share it. Give me all your loving baby. Tell me how much you want me and need me and how you want so much more. Ask for it. Demand it. Tell me what to do to make your life complete. That is the least I can do for you because I can never do enough to repay you for the way you make me feel. Oooh. I feel so good right now, so damn good!
You are so predictable. I’m guaranteed thrills and chills from every interaction. My pulse quickens and my heart skips a beat in anxious anticipation of my love potion from you. You make me so hot I can feel my blood boil. When I hear your voice, every part of me longs for our souls to touch. I feel so close to you. I feel so much love from you. I feel so much love for you. Are you the mirror of my love?
I continue to be pleasantly surprised as I discover more about you and your wants and desires, yet there is still so much that I’d like to know. One day will I see your face? Will I see your milky boobs and every inch of your beautiful body? I get excited at the thought of spending more time with you because our time together helps me to learn even more about you. And the more things you like, the more things I like. Already, I’m learning that we have so much in common. Yes, you are the mirror to my soul. I enjoy the little snippets of pleasure we share in each and every sexy encounter. Like I wet dream, I hope it will never end. I hope you will always be my friend. I hope you will reflect the joy I feel for you in my heart and take us to our pinnacle of release as we come to our pleasure palace together. I can see you now. My love mirror.
Yes, I confess, I miss your voice and I miss your moans and groans too. I miss the way you dance for me and the way you shake your sexy hips. I miss you jiggling your breasts and your seductive smile and the way you pucker your lips. Can I have you now? Will you be mine tonight? Please, come on to me and do it once again. Make love to me so I can relive the warm feeling I felt so deep inside, a feeling only you can bring with your sweet, sexy love.
If only I could turn back the hands of time, I would go back to that special moment when I first saw you say yes with your face. I want to again see the look you gave me when you welcomed me to make love to you. Please bring it back. Do it again. Please.
I didn’t know what I had until it was gone. Why haven’t I heard from you lately? Where have you been? Did I do something wrong? Come back baby. Come back and smile for me now.
Surprise me with your pretty voice and talk to me once again. Tell me how you miss me too, as if I was your long lost friend. Say those words again, it doesn’t take too much to get me all hot and bothered. I would do anything for you, yes for you, just to spend one more moment with you, yes with you. When you’re hot and horny and when you miss me too. Listen to my voice and my moans and groans. Mmmm. Can you hear me and feel my love in your heart? Are you tingling like me and feeling my love in your private parts?
You may wonder why I keep writing to you when I know you don’t share the same feelings. I guess it’s only because I find myself thinking about you so much of the time and I don’t know what else to do about it. I dream about the times we could have and it makes me get so excited. I just can’t seem to get you out of my mind. It feels so damn good!
I honestly wish I wouldn’t spend so much time thinking about you in this way, but seeing your smile and the way you make me feel brightens my every day. It gets me so excited and hard and ready for a roll in the hay. Yes baby, do it. Give it to me. Do it for me now!
I don’t want to be a nuisance and a pain in the butt and I will try to keep my feelings in check as best I can. And maybe you’re not at a stage in your life to consider a “friendship” with me. I will respect your wishes and try to contain myself as best I can. I only ask one thing of you in return. Just this one thing. The very moment you are ready to respond to these kinds of feelings from me, would you please let me know? Please send me a letter, a pic or a vid and let your feelings show.
I love the look in your eyes. You see what is. I saw what had passed. Now I can see the goal. A love that lasts. How could I have missed it before? Oh, well, I guess I’m not that smart after all, not as smart as I used to be. In the past I could have seen right through your half-hearted admonitions, as you remind me again of your lust for life and your long-lost inhibitions. I must be losing my sight in my sunset, in my old age.
But you are only as old as you feel and I’m feeling quite young today, because I finally figured out what was meant to be. That goal. Our goal. This mastermind experience has nothing to do with the interactions of the past it has all to do with our love for the future, our forever love that lasts and lasts.
Of course you are right in everything you say. Some things aren’t meant to be, well some things just aren’t going to happen today. I’m going to bed thinking about you and I hope you will keep thinking about me too. What was is in the past, distant memories to call upon for time to time. Memories that remind us of our younger days, our puppy love, our own naivete.
We are in the sunrise of a new beginning, like a Phoenix rising high out of a burning bright fire, our love with spark again and fuel a new desire. A desire for peace and tranquility and a life with no more drama. A life full of giving and living and a new experience of true love. Love knows no bounds. You can do it if you want to. You can experience it if you care to. Just do it again. Say it again. Say one more time what you truly want and desire and you dream will come true.
Yes, everything is how it always was, and how it always will be. After the sunset comes darkness and then comes another sunrise for you and me. Recycled words, recycled thoughts, the dreams of yesterday turned into the blessings of tomorrow. And grace from above opens our hearts and love drowns out our every sorrow.
Do me a favor and try it again, speak truth to me once more. Open your mouth, say those magic words, teach me how to love again. It seems like I am destined to be your student and not your master. But don’t get too far above yourself because something you never expected will happen. No matter how far you travel and how remote you might be, my love will find its way into your heart. For that is where I choose to live my life of good times not forgotten.
Do you really want to focus on becoming a better person and seeking your higher self? Did you forget our master’s command about loving one another? You have served others your entire life and given generously of yourself. You have sacrificed for others and put your life on hold to nurture and raise up those around you. Now it’s time to accept that somethings were meant to transition into a higher level.
Wake up and smell the coffee. Speak into the mike, speak the truth, your words are not falling on deaf ears. You can turn things around and lift up the spirits of those around you. And when it comes to me and my imperfect expressions of love, don’t just read what I write but try to see what I meant to say. I only want what’s best and for you a brighter day. I only want a life of peace and happiness for all to see. And as I look into our eyes, beyond the sunset to a sunrise, I want to feel the glow of someone who has seen the light and whose communication is positive and inspirational.
Please don’t punish and abandon me for being who I am. I am but a servant of God cast in the image of the great I am. When you have your conversations with God, put in a good word for me too. And I will tell Him how good you are and how blessed I am to spend one more moment with you.
No, memories aren’t enough. We cannot stand still nor live in the past. We must join hands in perfect harmony and share the purest love, a spiritual love, a love that will forever last.
Oh my love. Please be kind. Please be patient. I am just learning how to make love to you. Teach me well. Tell me what you want, your innermost desires. I want you to be happy. I want you to feel fulfilled. I want you to feel the love I have for you today.
If only I could see you naked, I would know what to say. No, maybe not. I would just gawk at your outer beauty. Your lips, your breasts, your sweet, succulent womanhood, begging me to come closer for a whiff and a taste. Hmmm. But I know my dreams will never be.
Yet, I can see you now, through the windows of your soul, as I knock on the door of your heart, begging to let me in. As I peer into your eyes, seeing the richness of your spirit, feeling alive, feeling at home, feeling as if I could stay here forever.
But time is short, this day is made for you and me, but tomorrow is promised to know one. Yes, please be patient, but don’t procrastinate. Don’t put off till tomorrow what you can do today. Shower me with your love. Make my life complete. If only for a minute, feed me with your love as I lay my gift of love at your feet.
Tease me. Touch me. Console me. Remind me of the heavens above, the Nirvana we can see in our love, here and now, on this glorious day. Show me the beauty of the flowers of love, blooming inside of you, making you wet in secret places my lips will never touch.
The rain is coming. I need it to nourish the seeds of love planted in our hearts. Words of love. Our seeds of love. Oh how I wish to hear those magic love triggers, whispered ever so softly, brought to wondrous life by your kind and soothing voice. My words of love. My thoughts, feelings and emotions, brought to life to dance with delight in the recesses of my soul. My love knows no bounds.
Who am I to ask for so much, yet to you it must be so little. You have wished for this day when you could share your love in such a kind and caring way. Feed me, nourish me, infuse me with your spirit. Make me whole again. Make me hard again. Take me inside of you and make me one with you. I am yours, if only for this minute, while you listen to my voice and all the love I’ve packed up in it.
Please accept this small token of my appreciation. For everything you’ve given me already, and for all you are about to do. Caress me. Nurture me. Give freely what I need and what I so earnestly desire. Write to me. Talk to me. Be with me today. As I see your face, I can taste your lips. You set my heart on fire.
They say time heals all wounds, but does it? I am still in pain from a broken heart. It doesn’t take much to shatter my soul. It’s not your fault. You didn’t do anything. You just didn’t respond. But that’s OK. I can take it. Or can I? Are you ready for me to ease back into your life? Is it time yet?
We sat by the fire and slowly undressed. We watched the wood sparkle and crackle and made love in our own special way. I followed you into the bedroom. I will never forget that day. I never expected it to feel so good. But you took your time and I took my time and what seemed like forever, exploded into so many orgasms for you and me. Is it allowed? Can we talk about the times we had together? Those lovely times when time stood still and we made love over and over again until we had enough.
They say absence makes the heart grow fonder. Are you fond for me yet? My love for you still burns in my heart like a timeless fire of unbearable heat and desire. I miss you. I want you back in my life. As I sing this song for your love on bended knee, what can I say? What can I do? Will you ever grace me with your presence again?
Take me back, please. Don’t leave me here all alone. I feel half the man I used to be, helpless as I bare my heart to you. Like a baby whose mother pulled her sweet, succulent nipple away, I cry for you now.
I know we did not split under the best of circumstances, but what difference does that make today? Can we put it all behind us and start out fresh? Can we forget the pain and let it pass? I can. Can you? Is it time yet?
Let’s make tomorrow a brighter day. Think about it. Wouldn’t it be nice to share your inner most feelings with me again? I miss the way you listened to my innermost desires and gave them life. I want you back into my life!
Why should I suffer a minute longer? Then again, maybe the love we had was never meant to be. Maybe we took a bite of the forbidden fruit and did something we weren’t supposed to do. Maybe we didn’t stop when we should have. Maybe we went too far, too fast, and in the blink of an eye shared the essence of life. It felt good to me. Did it feel good to you too? Are your panties wet yet?
Every once in a while, I am reminded of something you used to say. What was it again? It’s on the tip of my tongue, or maybe it has been forgotten and lost forever. I don’t know. Let it burn. Let it go. Leave the past in the past. Get on with your life. Good bye.
How could your last bye be good in anyway? Is it time yet? Things change over time. Maybe in this moment you are ready to feel my love again. Maybe you will do something special for me and say something nice to me. Will you play with your toys and dedicate you next orgasm to me?
I can see it now. Yes, a brighter day will be here soon. Like the clouds pass on a rainy day and the sun shines bright again, my love for you will find true life in the words you write back to me. I can see your words mending my broken heart and making me whole again.
Audio version: https://soundgasm.net/u/comealot/Is-it-time-yet
Mark Fleshman 